| (no subject) |
[Dec. 2nd, 2007|02:04 pm] |
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| | death cab. death cab. it's all downhill from here | ] |
my head is blank
in front of the firing squad
the panic attacks are happening so much more often
and the deadline has already past
solutions are scary
cause then there was a mistake
in the first place
there is some warmth in the madness though
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 20th, 2007|10:47 pm] |
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i ha ve no idea what's going on with any of you...= / |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 30th, 2007|10:24 pm] |
i ate carbs on tuesday
im not feeling so well
im incrediably lonely
and fully aware that is my fault
im not really as depressed as i seem
i think? |
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| i think i've got it |
[Jul. 29th, 2007|10:09 pm] |
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“Can you be a misanthrope and still love or enjoy some individuals? How about a compassionate misanthrope?”
-Hilary Clinton 1967 |
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| hyphy and I'm broke |
[Jul. 2nd, 2007|11:11 pm] |
i talked to the most gorgeous guy today
sometimes i forget how old I am
Goodnight |
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| irony |
[Jun. 24th, 2007|12:17 am] |
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The way I see it #261
All the darkness of the world cannot extinguish the light of a small candle.
I'm home |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 15th, 2007|04:16 pm] |
i don't understand why my thoughts aren't consistant
= [
other than that i'm loving summer |
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| failure to launch |
[Jun. 5th, 2007|09:46 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | los lonley | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | t-pain | ] |
curiousity may kill a cat
but indifference kills us all
that's not judgement
cause i know how guilty of that i really really am (judgement)
incrediably guilty of indifference as well
my point to all of you is....
im sorry the cards got stacked this way
and that i got so angry
im sorry i've been so aggressive in my ways
but i'm not sorry i feel the way i do
it's not fair for me to take anything out on anyone though
no matter why
no one's a mindreader
no one
but if it's not what i wanted/needed/ could handle, then ok
but you're only yourself
i can't be upset that your not what i wanted
that's ridiculous
i wish i would have connected all those dots a little sooner
would have have been a lot less painful i think
the silence is ridiculous as well but i'm out of things to say
it's not meant as rude...although i know it is
but i've got to at this point
this is not for pity
this isn't an excuse
this is aknowledgement
because that's all i can/want to do
tomorrow's a blank slate |
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| onestands&fastcars |
[Jun. 4th, 2007|10:42 pm] |
Now as the summer fades
I let you slip away
You say I’m not your type
But I can make you sway
It makes you burn to learn
You’re not the only one
I'd let you be if you
put down your blazing gun
Now you’ve gone somewhere else
Far away
I don’t know if I will find you (find you, find you)
But you feel my breath
On your neck
Can’t believe I’m right behind you (right behind you)
‘Cause you keep me coming back for more
And I feel a little better than I did before
And if I never see your face again
I don’t mind
‘Cause we gone much further than I thought we'd get tonight
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| mts and sunsets |
[Jun. 3rd, 2007|08:02 pm] |
i lead a pretty plush life.
i appreciate that |
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| bounding |
[Jun. 2nd, 2007|03:23 pm] |
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sleep
work
party
sleep
work
concert
sleep
work
play
sleep
shop
car
sleep
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| letmeoutb4thiswargetsstarted |
[May. 21st, 2007|10:25 pm] |
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through specs and pixels
i've seem to lost my rocks
the concrete structures i could lean on
in the rush
they sank beneath the surface |
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| tuck that ice in...(cause i'm missing my rock) |
[May. 19th, 2007|10:37 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | circle marques houston | ] |
I'd like to feel like I could express (expose) myself here
say the truth (unabashed) for once
but i can't
and if i can't here
then there is no where to say it
(i doubt you'd like it anyways)
i'm becoming more interverted (cough cough)
i just realized why i focus on my school work
(no it's not cause i want to go FAR)
I'd like to say I really like him I'd like to say it's OK that I'm attracted to him I'd like to say it's ok that he's interested I'd like to say it's not just a distraction but once again i can't
i'm tired
and i hate circles
so im out
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| 2down |
[May. 15th, 2007|04:38 pm] |
mmk
I'm handling the stress so well now...it's weird
not complaining though
Rap music is nice sometimes
lalalala |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 8th, 2007|08:43 pm] |
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i'm tired of being so angry |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 29th, 2007|06:28 pm] |
my mom's my hero
she fixed my dress = ] |
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| stopit |
[Apr. 26th, 2007|11:29 pm] |
wrong
this is all all all wrong
i really just don't see any positivity in the world
i don't think i can try any harder either
but i'm still going to see the clouds
and not the sun. |
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| lack of gratefulness (so shot me) |
[Apr. 25th, 2007|07:55 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | lost | ] |
| [ | music |
| | hmmmmm | ] |
not my week month year etc
New Orleans->no school->no homework->stress->car accident->more stress
throw in some controversy
a crazy doctor and
my inability to read how much NYU costs ($8000 instead of $4000)
= not so stable jordan
yikes....
it would probably be in ur best interest to leave me alone
cause im not sure if i'll yell or cry but the odds are i'll crack
6days to my bday(can i pretty plz postpone it?) |
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| crashnburn |
[Apr. 24th, 2007|09:14 am] |
| [ | music |
| | beautiful disaster | ] |
I know its past tense
Its been a minute since
We were a couple
And, walking and holding hands
Kisses and I love yous
Doing what lovers do
Baby
But baby that was then
Cause now we don't
Talk no more
You gotta a new man
And, it shouldn't bother me
But girl its driving me, crazy
And everybody says
Boy why don't you just leave it alone
But I don't think I can
[Chorus (x2)]
I sit up all night
Thinkin' bout ya
And know it ain't right, baby
But I don't
I don't think, don't think that I
That I can let go (Don't think I can let you know)
I'm holdin' on to hope
I know its a foolish thought
Think that someday she might come back
Wish on it all the time
Knowin' it never may happen
But see I'm not a fool
Cause no we don't
Talk no more
You gotta new man
But, I'm gonna keep it safe
I've got the patience
That some lack...
But everybody says
Boy why don't you just leave it alone
But I don't think I can
[Chorus]
I sit up all night
Thinkin' bout ya
And know it ain't right, baby
But I don't
I don't think, don't think that I
That I can let go (Don't think I can let you know)
[Interlude]
I don't think I can let you go
I can't let you go
No....
I don't think that I can let you go
Let go...
And everybody says...
And I don't think I can...
[Chorus (With Ad-Libs)]
I sit up all night
Thinkin' bout ya
And know it ain't right, baby
But I don't
I don't think, don't think that I
That I can let go (Don't think I can let you know) |
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